I have a habit of ‘living’ in my car, recently my car died. The process of cleaning it out to be towed away has been interesting, at least. Most interesting find? The faded pro and con list about moving to Brasil to become a missionary from 2008. It’s interesting that I can obviously tell I made this list before I accepted the real reason I couldn’t go: that I no longer believed. This was a wild time of inner conflict in my life path; still, it was nice to have to face it again.